Moved to WP
Since my last post I have fallen off the bandwagon now. Since I've stopped that medication I think the weight has been piling on... also I feel like crap most of the times so emotional eating is kicking in, and I'm mindlessly eating, eating, and eating. I'm getting fat!!!! Feeling so useless and pathetic now. Must stop...
Don't know what to do these days... I dislike driving even more now - another failed attempt at the practical test and failing miserably... need to snap out of this feeling really. Need to be shaken by the shoulders, to be waken up.
Enough negativity... what else have I been up to?
Nothing really... K has gone now, so everything feels weird. Wonder how things will work out in the future? Went yum cha on Sunday, hadn't been in ages and plus it was Mother's Day. Then got my hair cut, got a fringe again, layers put in too so my hair is not that different. At least its not shapeless and caveman-like. Altogether lunch and haircut equalled over £100 and I just paid for my holiday too... *sniff*. Roll on pay day!!!
Been playing Resident Evil 5 offline co-operative mode which is fun... about halfway through now. We just got frustrated cos we were being chased my two chainsaw guys for a long time... crazy. Need to attempt that again.
Don't know what to do these days... I dislike driving even more now - another failed attempt at the practical test and failing miserably... need to snap out of this feeling really. Need to be shaken by the shoulders, to be waken up.
Enough negativity... what else have I been up to?
Nothing really... K has gone now, so everything feels weird. Wonder how things will work out in the future? Went yum cha on Sunday, hadn't been in ages and plus it was Mother's Day. Then got my hair cut, got a fringe again, layers put in too so my hair is not that different. At least its not shapeless and caveman-like. Altogether lunch and haircut equalled over £100 and I just paid for my holiday too... *sniff*. Roll on pay day!!!
Been playing Resident Evil 5 offline co-operative mode which is fun... about halfway through now. We just got frustrated cos we were being chased my two chainsaw guys for a long time... crazy. Need to attempt that again.
- Mood:
pessimistic
I'm still struggling, struggling so much with my skin problems... help...
Well got my hand tally counter I can finally start my exercises from The Eczema Solution book. Need to stop my scratching, especially when I'm asleep. Well it's a long road ahead of me right now, went to see the doctor yesterday she is referring me to a dermatologist. Well I hope I see the derm soon, my eczema does seem to be clearing up on most parts of my body, just the constant scratching - its not helping at all.
Its been months since I have had a good nights sleep, got dark eye circles and bags to show for it... lovely.
As a result of all this I haven't been exercising at all. I dread waking up in the mornings. It takes me a long time to get out of bed.
I've also gone back to using some steroid creams just for the really bad bits, but I got a very mild one rather than using the one I have at home which is pretty strong.
Been reading alot of information online about Eczema, wonder if probiotics really help. I'm tempted to get some probiotic yogurt to try out. I'm also convinced some food or something triggered my recent flareup, cos my skin was pretty clear apart from my face before that.. the last huge flareup I had was when I was 20 - that was four years ago. Sigh...
- Mood: sad
I am so tired and aching in places, my legs feel stiff from the Plyometrics training I did yesterday morning (which was only half a session).. I guess all the walking I did yesterday also made it worse. The pain was only felt when I woke up this morning. I had a driving lesson also after stopping my lessons for about 3 months, so stiff legs and driving.. hmm yeah.. not a good idea.
Had a good day yesterday... it was nice spending time with K, and also thanks for the pressie... me like very much. Hehe. Another year older now.. well last Friday anyway, can't believe it's August already!!
For the rest of the day I plan to rest and that's all I want to do.
Had a good day yesterday... it was nice spending time with K, and also thanks for the pressie... me like very much. Hehe. Another year older now.. well last Friday anyway, can't believe it's August already!!
For the rest of the day I plan to rest and that's all I want to do.
- Mood:
happy
Well today is the day... I am very worried. Just hope I can hand it in and be done with it really. So strange that when you finally get to hand in your notice, when you finally get to leave the place you've really wanted to get out of for a long time, that when it comes down to it, you start feeling guilty. Maybe it's just me.
On the other hand I am starting to feel down again, I don't know if people are making excuses or what, maybe I should hide away for a while. I really should be smiling now but I'm not. I guess not until I finally get out of there, and also when I know what's going on, if it's just paranoia or what, then... maybe... I think I'm just chatting rubbish now.
On the other hand I am starting to feel down again, I don't know if people are making excuses or what, maybe I should hide away for a while. I really should be smiling now but I'm not. I guess not until I finally get out of there, and also when I know what's going on, if it's just paranoia or what, then... maybe... I think I'm just chatting rubbish now.
- Mood:
contemplative
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